I'm so close to finishing my uni work. SO CLOSE. But finishing things off is harder than I thought it would be. It's more that I can't find the motivation to do it (no change there then..) which is stupid. The motivation should be finishing uni. Really, I could have my work finished and submitted tonight. Then that would be it. No more uni. But I just can't make myself do it. And I find it hard to know when I'm finished, I could keep editing more and more until I run out of time. I have an essay to edit, a curation piece to finish, my portfolio to finalise and then I'm done. Not a lot at all. But right now all I can think about is going to buy milkybar buttons from the shop. But I won't. I managed to pretty much inhale a big bar of dairy milk the other night and I can't let it happen again.
I've pretty much waved goodbye to my beach body. My willpower is 0. Looks like I'll be spending my summer in some kind of old lady kaftan, hiding in the shadows on the beach. I had such good intentions. How will I find Jose or Pablo (my Spanish husband-to-be) if I look like a beached whale. Ok I'm not quite at whale point, but I'm not ready to strut down the beach like some kind of movie star. I'm thinking about getting a spray tan before I go. But then the depressing thing is I will probably leave England more tanned than I will be when I come home after 8 weeks in the sun.
8 weeks. I'm starting to feel like that's quite a long time. I've been away for 5 weeks before but even when I'm at uni I go home every three or four weeks for a few days. I guess I need to get used to it though, when I leave in September I won't be home again till Christmas and after that, it will probably be Easter or the summer. Hopefully I'll be having too much fun to notice.
Grumpy grumpy. I'm going to sit and try and do some work now. I'm so sleepy. I've been at work today and walked home in the rain and got wet feet. All I want to do is eat chocolate and watch some rubbish TV.
5 days to go...
Kisses
p.s. I got my hair cut. It wasn't too much of a disaster. I quite like it actually. If anything I'd have liked it a bit shorter but I couldn't bring myself to ask them..
Showing posts with label Chcocolate. Show all posts
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Thursday, 9 May 2013
Sunday, 5 May 2013
Boredom, tiredness and hunger
So I should be writing my essay right now and instead I'm writing on here and thinking about what food to buy from the shop. I'm so hungry. A mini tin of beans was not a satisfying way to start my morning. I'm really craving fish and chips but is half 12 too early for them? Maybe I should wait till tea time. I'm really hungry now though. I want chocolate too but I have a bit of an issue with it. I don't have any self control and a big bag of malteasers can be gone in minutes. I'm not even joking, it's like I inhale them.
I'm blaming this mornings hunger on after work drinks last night. Alcohol always makes me so hungry the next day. I didn't even plan to stay, but free drinks after a long shift, how could I say no? Kind of regretted my decision after the first drink though. My usual work friends weren't there. We're the losers who stick together and hardly talk to the others. But we were part of the "original" lot and then the newbies started last September and we never really joined with them. There's one girl who's only young (18) and it's so obvious. Last night she was telling everyone about how she was going home (to halls) to "watch a film" with some guy. She made no secret of the fact they would be "watching a film" winky winky. She then went on to say stupid things like she doesn't have to find someone attractive to "get with them". I just sat there and cringed for her. In a couple of years she'll realise how naive and a bit trampy that makes her seem. Why would you sit there and tell our nice, but much older male manager that? It's not cool. No one was impressed. It doesn't sound so bad written down but she is so much of a "fresher" it's embarrassing. I don't care if you "got sooo drunk last night OMG I don't remember anything except getting with 5 guys lmao hahaha". Do it if you want but it's not making you seem super cool talking about it. I'm not sure if she, or the medical student who thinks she's perfect is the most annoying. Shut up and go away. I sat there looking miserable until someone agreed to get a taxi home with me. I got a free hoody though. Not that I will wear it anywhere other than my house, but still, freebies are always good.
I'm off to the shop now, going to try and control my spending and tryyy and not buy a mountain of crisps and chocolate.
I'm back. I was good and the only naughty thing I bought was 2 small packets of crisps and I've managed not to eat them yet. I'm going to the library soon though and that always means library snacks. Today I'm thinking skittles. My essay is nearly done (whether it's right or not, I have no idea, but it's nearly long enough) and my other bits of work are coming along well. Hopefully I can hand it all in by Friday and then I'm free! One more shift at work on Friday night and I'm hoping one of my parents will pick me up on Sunday. They might make me wait until next week though which isn't ideal, I've got a lot to do at home so sooner would be better. I'm a bit sad about finishing now, but at least I've got exciting things to look forward to. Really really going to miss my home friends though :( They all get back for summer after I've left for Spain and then most are away through August so that will only leave a few weeks to see them before Spain in September. Hmmm. Hopefully I'll have lots of visitors when I'm out there though.
Right, off to the library now. It's so warm outside, I got a bit sweaty walking to the shop. Not the idea day for library time. Nearly done, nearly done, nearly done. Need to keep remembering that!
Kisses
I'm blaming this mornings hunger on after work drinks last night. Alcohol always makes me so hungry the next day. I didn't even plan to stay, but free drinks after a long shift, how could I say no? Kind of regretted my decision after the first drink though. My usual work friends weren't there. We're the losers who stick together and hardly talk to the others. But we were part of the "original" lot and then the newbies started last September and we never really joined with them. There's one girl who's only young (18) and it's so obvious. Last night she was telling everyone about how she was going home (to halls) to "watch a film" with some guy. She made no secret of the fact they would be "watching a film" winky winky. She then went on to say stupid things like she doesn't have to find someone attractive to "get with them". I just sat there and cringed for her. In a couple of years she'll realise how naive and a bit trampy that makes her seem. Why would you sit there and tell our nice, but much older male manager that? It's not cool. No one was impressed. It doesn't sound so bad written down but she is so much of a "fresher" it's embarrassing. I don't care if you "got sooo drunk last night OMG I don't remember anything except getting with 5 guys lmao hahaha". Do it if you want but it's not making you seem super cool talking about it. I'm not sure if she, or the medical student who thinks she's perfect is the most annoying. Shut up and go away. I sat there looking miserable until someone agreed to get a taxi home with me. I got a free hoody though. Not that I will wear it anywhere other than my house, but still, freebies are always good.
I'm off to the shop now, going to try and control my spending and tryyy and not buy a mountain of crisps and chocolate.
I'm back. I was good and the only naughty thing I bought was 2 small packets of crisps and I've managed not to eat them yet. I'm going to the library soon though and that always means library snacks. Today I'm thinking skittles. My essay is nearly done (whether it's right or not, I have no idea, but it's nearly long enough) and my other bits of work are coming along well. Hopefully I can hand it all in by Friday and then I'm free! One more shift at work on Friday night and I'm hoping one of my parents will pick me up on Sunday. They might make me wait until next week though which isn't ideal, I've got a lot to do at home so sooner would be better. I'm a bit sad about finishing now, but at least I've got exciting things to look forward to. Really really going to miss my home friends though :( They all get back for summer after I've left for Spain and then most are away through August so that will only leave a few weeks to see them before Spain in September. Hmmm. Hopefully I'll have lots of visitors when I'm out there though.
Right, off to the library now. It's so warm outside, I got a bit sweaty walking to the shop. Not the idea day for library time. Nearly done, nearly done, nearly done. Need to keep remembering that!
Kisses
Monday, 25 March 2013
Back Again
Yep, I'm back again. Maybe it's something to do with being home alone and only having cats for company, but I was quite looking forward to another post. Sad? Maybe.
It's 10.30am and I'm already contemplating a nap. I was up at half 8 though which is early for me.
I guess I should do a bit more of an introduction. I read last nights post and realised that it didn't tell you much about me. I'm 22 and a journalism student (last thing I want to do as a career...) I had a gap year and did nothing exciting with it, I'm a year older than most other people in my classes. People said a year doesn't make much of a difference, but I think it does. My closest friends at uni are all my age. Nothing wrong with the ones a year younger, I just feel like they're a bit different to me. Maybe it's more to do with life experience. After working full time and being pretty independent in my gap year I feel like I'm a bit more mature sometimes. I think that I'm shy, but then I'm more capable of going into scary situations than a lot of my "confident" friends. I went to Eastern Europe on my own when I was 20, traveled by myself and everything. No chance of some of my friends doing that. I can't strut into a room full of people and be like "HEEEEY" like some people though.
I'm tall (not giant tall, but tall), a bit on the chubby side (I WILL have a beach body by the time I go to Spain!) but I'm pretty happy with myself. I'm just bored of being stuck in education and excited about freedom. Only a few weeks left till I will be out of education. FOREVER. Unless I go back to do a PGCE or something, but we won't talk about that now.
I wish I could say I had a list of hobbies but I don't. I spent my childhood at the stables horse riding pretty much 24/7. Sold my horse before uni and since then hobbies have been non-existent. Unless you count partying and being hungover as a hobby. I wish I loved running, I really do. I try. Right now I'm so motivated to go for a jog but the pavements are like an ice rink so there is no chance I'm stepping outside today.
I imagine myself strolling down a Spanish beach. Hair wavy, tanned skin, toned body, with a hair braid and an anklet. Maybe it will happen. Maybe it won't. More likely to snag my Spanish husband if it does happen though. Wishful thinking perhaps.
I'm eagerly awaiting loan day so I can go shopping for lovely summer dresses and bikinis (must stop eating chocolate) but for now I'm stuck browsing the internet and buying second hand from Ebay. Woo. I have a job as well but I seem to manage to spend all my money in super fast time with nothing to show for it. I buy food a lot. Maybe that's where I'm going wrong with the beach body thing, but I usually have healthy stuff. Fish is super expensive so I'm going to blame my love of it for my lack of money.
My afternoon will be spent painting my nails and moisturising. How exciting is life. Going to attempt another 1000 words of dissertation this evening too. I will finish it. I hope...
I will sign off as my European friends do with a single word...
Kisses
It's 10.30am and I'm already contemplating a nap. I was up at half 8 though which is early for me.
I guess I should do a bit more of an introduction. I read last nights post and realised that it didn't tell you much about me. I'm 22 and a journalism student (last thing I want to do as a career...) I had a gap year and did nothing exciting with it, I'm a year older than most other people in my classes. People said a year doesn't make much of a difference, but I think it does. My closest friends at uni are all my age. Nothing wrong with the ones a year younger, I just feel like they're a bit different to me. Maybe it's more to do with life experience. After working full time and being pretty independent in my gap year I feel like I'm a bit more mature sometimes. I think that I'm shy, but then I'm more capable of going into scary situations than a lot of my "confident" friends. I went to Eastern Europe on my own when I was 20, traveled by myself and everything. No chance of some of my friends doing that. I can't strut into a room full of people and be like "HEEEEY" like some people though.
I'm tall (not giant tall, but tall), a bit on the chubby side (I WILL have a beach body by the time I go to Spain!) but I'm pretty happy with myself. I'm just bored of being stuck in education and excited about freedom. Only a few weeks left till I will be out of education. FOREVER. Unless I go back to do a PGCE or something, but we won't talk about that now.
I wish I could say I had a list of hobbies but I don't. I spent my childhood at the stables horse riding pretty much 24/7. Sold my horse before uni and since then hobbies have been non-existent. Unless you count partying and being hungover as a hobby. I wish I loved running, I really do. I try. Right now I'm so motivated to go for a jog but the pavements are like an ice rink so there is no chance I'm stepping outside today.
I imagine myself strolling down a Spanish beach. Hair wavy, tanned skin, toned body, with a hair braid and an anklet. Maybe it will happen. Maybe it won't. More likely to snag my Spanish husband if it does happen though. Wishful thinking perhaps.
I'm eagerly awaiting loan day so I can go shopping for lovely summer dresses and bikinis (must stop eating chocolate) but for now I'm stuck browsing the internet and buying second hand from Ebay. Woo. I have a job as well but I seem to manage to spend all my money in super fast time with nothing to show for it. I buy food a lot. Maybe that's where I'm going wrong with the beach body thing, but I usually have healthy stuff. Fish is super expensive so I'm going to blame my love of it for my lack of money.
My afternoon will be spent painting my nails and moisturising. How exciting is life. Going to attempt another 1000 words of dissertation this evening too. I will finish it. I hope...
I will sign off as my European friends do with a single word...
Kisses
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